Back in the day i was pretty oblivious and careless with my actions. I didn’t really give a damn or i was just plain blind to the situation.
some of these was because this was before i realized I was the type a person someone would say had a way with words, so that when people were hitting on me or were nice to me. I’d only see it as them acting normal like me and not liking me.
another was because I just didn’t care about anything back in the day. I was out in search of just instant gratification. I had no room for anything that didn’t have to do with me getting a rush from something, someone, or some action.
here are some stories of my past that i’m not proud of, but it happened.
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#1 There was a girl in high school who tried talking to me about the homecoming dance. i did not see where she was going with this stuff and at the time i wasn’t one for school spirit.
With a hella big smile she comes up to me beaming.
Girl: Hey E.T. Do you have a date to the homecoming dance? *smiles*
Me: …no *bluntly said, i looked at her for a second then went back to staring at my paper on my desl
Girl: oh well do you plan on going still? *still smiling*
Me: No. the homecoming dance is for losers. i mean seriously why waste my time going to a dance with a bunch of people that can’t move for a football team that isn’t even going to win. *frowns and looks back at paper*
Girl: *sad face walks away*
Me: *no clue as to why she was talking to me other then to annoy me…*
It took me 2+ years for me to realize that on that day she was probably planning on asking me to the dance. i basically shot her down and killed her mood.
I’m Sorry for killing your mood and not realizing that you were asking me out to the dance
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#2 I used to chill with a girl that would drive 30 minutes plus when we were in highschool
I think i was a junior and she was a senior, so driving that far was something you know. What made it worse was the fact that she drove that far to bring me fried chicken. I think for christmas she bought me chucks too. I never visited her. maybe once.
It was just about 2 months ago that i was just sitting at the computer when it hit me. Holy Sh*t!!!! i think she liked me. i mean really liked me.
I’m sorry for being a dummy and not realizing how much you liked me if you were willing to drive so far just to bring me fried chicken.
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#3 I realized this was a bad thing when one day in the early summer i was driving past the AMC 14 where a girl and i used to kick it.
We used to go to the movie theatres and do stupid things and i swear this happened and that my memory isn’t skewed, but it went something like this.
As we were driving past the AMC 14 saratoga i looked at it and went AHH the memories there. fun times.
Then i had a flashback to this moment where i was kicking it with this girl and we had intentions of messing around. So i get tickets to master and commander i think when it was already out for a few weeks. I figured it’d be a empty theater we could use for good times, but i was wrong. It was packed and the only seats we could find was in the middle row all the way on the inside far right next to the wall.
we’re basically 1 and 2. in this little thing i drew below.
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Yea, so on my left is a random guy about 32+ years old and there i am 17-18 and hormones raging. so what do i do? i start heavily making out with this chick while being bascially surrounded on everyside by people except for the far right cause theres a wall there. Let’s just say that it didn’t stop at kissing and we basically had very curious hands.
It took me several years to realize how morally deprived i was to just put a guy trying to watch a movie next to me through a visual ordeal between 2 crazy kids. I’m sorry guy for my behavior, and for whatever parts of me you might have seen. I realize now that turning sideways to shield things from you doesn’t really work and i’m sorry for the awkwardness.
I really can’t believe i was so oblivious to how wrong that was. at the time i loved doing it. every second was amazing. haha ;/
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again. it’s late. I’ve been better in recent memory but i still mess up from time to time. so my bad. If it doesn’t make sense then i was to tired to edit it. my bad
latez
